Funk

I'm in such a funk today. It's my only day off and I'm milking it for sure. It's the middle of the afternoon and I have yet to shower or even get out of my nightgown. All I can think about is what is wrong with my life at the moment. It's pathetic. I've been applying to odd jobs all morning. We really need a better income. I literally hate that I'm applying for retail jobs again, but you gotta do what you gotta do I guess. I've even been looking at jobs in the Air Force. I don't know if I'm cut out for the military, but at least it'd be a better income and I'd mostly have a decent schedule. I just don't know what to do. Having a Wednesday as my only day off and working afternoons leaves VERY little time for the hubby. We're really wanting to start a family and how will that work? If we can barely have time for us, how are we going to have time together as a family? I'm just feeling a little lost and making myself more and more miserable as each minute passes.