Hurt Feelings

So, hubby and I had a rough day last Saturday. He did some things and then lied about a lot of things and really hurt me. It wasn't even what he had done, but the numerous lies that he told that hurt the most. Sadly, this isn't even the first time we've been through this, which is frustrating beyond belief. Anyway, so the past few days we've slowly been working past the events of this weekend and I thought we were doing better. Today and tomorrow are my days off this week and he took leave to be with me and help get our house ready to move. (which was super sweet) We were hanging out in our bedroom and being goofy when I playing-ly pushed him off the bed and he playing-ly said he was just going to go sleep on the couch and I, again, played along. No matter how bad our arguments or disagreements or what have you, we've never spent a night apart if we can help it... obviously since we are a military family... So I was just going to wait him out and see how long it took him to come back. That stinker actually fell asleep on the couch, while I'm in here not able to shut down completely without him laying next to me! It's stupid how much my feelings are hurt that he was able to just plop down on the couch and have no problem falling asleep. He even said tonight how excited he was to get to fall asleep snuggling me... (I work 3-11pm so I get home way after he falls asleep, so it really is a treat)

So.. here I am.. blogging in my bed... alone. Every snore I hear it's just a reminder that he doesn't really need me as much as he claims, or at least that's how it feels.