1000 miles a minute

My brain will NOT shut off. Will not. And to be perfectly honest I'm rather surprised with myself about it.

I haven't posted in quite a while. I guess I've just gotten overwhelmed in the last few weeks or so. Working non-stop and making a trip to see my sister graduate, hubby's birthday, and everything else on our plates. Despite all of that I've been rather happy during the past few weeks. Hubby and I are happier and more in love than ever. I really am so lucky to have snagged him. A few days ago we mutually decided that we were tired of putting off starting our family. We both really really want it and feel like there is no better time than the present! So as soon as possible I'll be ditching the pill and seeing what happens. Because of that we also decided although I really find it difficult to handle certain things at work, I would be sticking it out and sucking it up and stay there as long as I possibly can. I would clearly need the maternity leave security on top of general security. I would hate to be at a new job and quickly getting pregnant after that. Also, hubby has made the difficult decision that he won't re-enlist when this four year stint is up. So in about 2-3 years we'll finally be getting back to Texas! I'm terrified and thrilled all in one. Honestly, I don't really know how I feel about it yet. I keep telling him he might change his mind (again!) and I won't be holding my breath. lol

So, tonight I find myself not able to turn off my brain and go to sleep. I'm tired, but not. I'm certainly exhausted, but I can't help feeling like I've set up an IV of caffeine sometime over the past few hours. In order to not disturb hubby toooooo much I decided to come in the living room and read/watch TV. Seeing my laptop I realized I hadn't checked anything all day long and hopped onto my email. Low and behold I have an email from an operations manager at an different tv station than the one I currently work for asking if I'd like to come in on Friday for an interview! What?! I'm completely shocked. Yes, I applied for it but gosh, I never ever expected to hear anything in return. And now I have no idea what to do. What about babies? As soon as we decide to go for it, I get an interview. There is no hope for me going to sleep soon. I truly don't know what to do. I guess I'll go just to see what they have to offer. If they pay more, I will just have to go for it... or if they can offer me a better schedule. And what about our vacation we have scheduled!? Oh geez. I can't wait for hubby to wake up and make me feel better about this whole situation.